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ad diem V Kalends October

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Lesson today. We spent the first 15 minutes or so talking about religion. Sparked by the fact that the girl before me has a Yiddish last name. She's half-Jewish, Diane is half-Jewish, I'm half-Jewish. The result: I end up spilling all of my "cultural-religious identity insecurities" to someone whom I a) am scared of and b) barely know. In other words, the usual.

I have this phobia of starting pieces. I always screw up the opening measure. No matter how well I know it, I can't seem to play well. She says, "Okay, let's hear it." I sit there for a couple seconds, then realize that this means I need to start. I get ready. I realize that I should have already started, that only a moron would wait this long before starting, that I need to start NOW. I screw it up.

I should be working on my Beowulf essay. Or my St. Augustine essay. But mainly the Beowulf because a) that one needs more work b) the St. Augustine is due this Friday, which means that I will get it done one way or the other and c) Morgon borrowed my copy of Confessions which will make the St. Augustine kind of tricky.

I need to figure ot why the fact that the women in Beowulf think about the future where the men tend to think only about the present, the big picture where the men think about the individual, is important. How would the poem be less if this were not the case?

( I ramble on and on and on and attempt to answer the above question )