*pities self*

[ricardienne]

Something has changed and it is not at all good. Three times in the past two times I have gone for a walk I have had men in cars yell stupid things at me. Now I don't want to go walking alone anymore, and if I go with someone else, than I have to talk. But if I don't get out of this house regularly, I shall really and truly and completely go nuts. [A sidenote to my mother: the incident of the Second-Grade Piano Teacher and the New Shoes has NO RELEVANCE WHATSOEVER to whether or not I am truthful about things now.]

Monteverdi can also go on the list of Things that make me Sad. It shouldn't, but it does. I am not having a good time of it at all as regards to music. I cannot make myself practice, and I don't care at all, and when I think about all the pieces I'm supposed to learn this summer, I get even more depressed. But I don't know how not to be a music major -- I have to be a music major. I don't know how to do anything else. And besides, if I drop music, then I will just spend those couple of hours being useless and lazy, and I don't need more time spent doing that.

I spent most of today trying to fit my doublet mock-up. After two tries with a dress dummy, I gave up, as usual, and am being my own dress dummy. For the record, trying to alter a mock-up on yourself while wearing a corset is quite self-defeating. I gave up, finally, although maybe I will be able to finish tomorrow. I have decided that I want to try to do some embroidery or at least trim sort of thing on it. Because, after all, what kind of costuming project would it be if it didn't include an interminable embroidery portion. And all of the portraits I can find have either embroidery or pom-poms, (or both) and I am NOT doing those. Also, my embroidery skills, unlike my attempts at needlelace, are not entirely horrible.

Comments

[achyvi.livejournal.com]

Is it catcalling things, or mean things in general?

[achyvi.livejournal.com]

Also, you can learn to do other things. After all, isn't that what college is all about? You learn things! That's why you don't have to decide on your major seriously your first year. Heck, you could even leave off until senior year if you really wanted, but that'd really just kinda piss off everyone, so you shouldn't. Still could, though, in theory.

[ricardienne.livejournal.com]

I suppose, catcalling things… but I don't get it at all. I am not the type of person who would be prone to getting that kind of unwanted attention.

[achyvi.livejournal.com]

You'd be surprised what some people will yell at, even when you're not "asking for it" by wearing a miniskirt or something. Some guy tried to pick me up (in a really creepy I'm-going-to-kidnap-you sort of way) when I was wearing a baggy ASU sweatshirt and a floor-length skirt (the maroon ren faire one).

Have you tried wearing headphones? Even if you still hear them, it'll at least make it a little easier to ignore.

[ricardienne.livejournal.com]

for the record, the only way I could have been less "asking for it" (on both occasions) was if I had been wearing a burka.

And I don't like headphones. They make my ears hurt, for one hting, and, in principle, I don't like the idea of going around in my own little world completely ignoring everyone else.

[achyvi.livejournal.com]

You don't actually have to play anything over them. Just pretend you are. Comfort, though... that's pretty important. I must admit, that's why my gaming headphones are those huge ones that crade the entire ear, because those are nice and comfy.