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*pities self*
Jun. 1st, 2006 11:48 pmSomething has changed and it is not at all good. Three times in the past two times I have gone for a walk I have had men in cars yell stupid things at me. Now I don't want to go walking alone anymore, and if I go with someone else, than I have to talk. But if I don't get out of this house regularly, I shall really and truly and completely go nuts. [A sidenote to my mother: the incident of the Second-Grade Piano Teacher and the New Shoes has NO RELEVANCE WHATSOEVER to whether or not I am truthful about things now.]
Monteverdi can also go on the list of Things that make me Sad. It shouldn't, but it does. I am not having a good time of it at all as regards to music. I cannot make myself practice, and I don't care at all, and when I think about all the pieces I'm supposed to learn this summer, I get even more depressed. But I don't know how not to be a music major -- I have to be a music major. I don't know how to do anything else. And besides, if I drop music, then I will just spend those couple of hours being useless and lazy, and I don't need more time spent doing that.
I spent most of today trying to fit my doublet mock-up. After two tries with a dress dummy, I gave up, as usual, and am being my own dress dummy. For the record, trying to alter a mock-up on yourself while wearing a corset is quite self-defeating. I gave up, finally, although maybe I will be able to finish tomorrow. I have decided that I want to try to do some embroidery or at least trim sort of thing on it. Because, after all, what kind of costuming project would it be if it didn't include an interminable embroidery portion. And all of the portraits I can find have either embroidery or pom-poms, (or both) and I am NOT doing those. Also, my embroidery skills, unlike my attempts at needlelace, are not entirely horrible.
Monteverdi can also go on the list of Things that make me Sad. It shouldn't, but it does. I am not having a good time of it at all as regards to music. I cannot make myself practice, and I don't care at all, and when I think about all the pieces I'm supposed to learn this summer, I get even more depressed. But I don't know how not to be a music major -- I have to be a music major. I don't know how to do anything else. And besides, if I drop music, then I will just spend those couple of hours being useless and lazy, and I don't need more time spent doing that.
I spent most of today trying to fit my doublet mock-up. After two tries with a dress dummy, I gave up, as usual, and am being my own dress dummy. For the record, trying to alter a mock-up on yourself while wearing a corset is quite self-defeating. I gave up, finally, although maybe I will be able to finish tomorrow. I have decided that I want to try to do some embroidery or at least trim sort of thing on it. Because, after all, what kind of costuming project would it be if it didn't include an interminable embroidery portion. And all of the portraits I can find have either embroidery or pom-poms, (or both) and I am NOT doing those. Also, my embroidery skills, unlike my attempts at needlelace, are not entirely horrible.
