life is not fair
Feb. 14th, 2011 03:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I hate PMS, and I especially hate it because I never know whether to think that...
(a) I'm feeling teary and overwhelmed and especially paralyzed by anxiety because it's *that time of the month* and I'm therefore actually going to be okay, and should just take it easy for a few days, because it's just a temporary sickness that will pass.
(b) Feeling anxious and overwhelmed and being on the verge of tears and consequently being more scattered and less on top of my work is something that I let myself "get away with" because I know I can blame it on PMS/being female.
(c) I always use things like this as an excuse not to do things or work hard enough, because I 'm lazy.
(d) There's no reason why I should have to be really really upset and falling to pieces for a few days every month and put up with it; it shouldn't be a fact of my life life any more than regular panic attacks or constant low-level depression. I can and should go talk to someone and do something about it.
I think that I hate even the idea of PMS. It's not fair that I get so upset, it's not fair that I feel awful and have stomach problems and get cramps. And I HATE IT that this is supposed to be just a 'normal' part of being female that you are just supposed to deal with on a regular basis for a large part of your adult life, if it happens to affect you. I'm crying right now, I'm so unhappy, and no -- I don't know why -- except that it's 'that time of the month' so of course I'm depressed.
EDIT: And the other stupid thing is that's Valentine's day, and whenever you're single and upset on Valentine's day, everyone assumes it's because you are pining to have a partner or are being made depressed by the reminder that you should have a partner, and if there is one thing that is NOT upsetting me today, it's Valentine's day, which I think is a great holiday for people in pairs (or sim.) and I like seeing you all together and hearing about the things you are doing with your significant others and it doesn't make me feel lonely and unwanted at all.
(a) I'm feeling teary and overwhelmed and especially paralyzed by anxiety because it's *that time of the month* and I'm therefore actually going to be okay, and should just take it easy for a few days, because it's just a temporary sickness that will pass.
(b) Feeling anxious and overwhelmed and being on the verge of tears and consequently being more scattered and less on top of my work is something that I let myself "get away with" because I know I can blame it on PMS/being female.
(c) I always use things like this as an excuse not to do things or work hard enough, because I 'm lazy.
(d) There's no reason why I should have to be really really upset and falling to pieces for a few days every month and put up with it; it shouldn't be a fact of my life life any more than regular panic attacks or constant low-level depression. I can and should go talk to someone and do something about it.
I think that I hate even the idea of PMS. It's not fair that I get so upset, it's not fair that I feel awful and have stomach problems and get cramps. And I HATE IT that this is supposed to be just a 'normal' part of being female that you are just supposed to deal with on a regular basis for a large part of your adult life, if it happens to affect you. I'm crying right now, I'm so unhappy, and no -- I don't know why -- except that it's 'that time of the month' so of course I'm depressed.
EDIT: And the other stupid thing is that's Valentine's day, and whenever you're single and upset on Valentine's day, everyone assumes it's because you are pining to have a partner or are being made depressed by the reminder that you should have a partner, and if there is one thing that is NOT upsetting me today, it's Valentine's day, which I think is a great holiday for people in pairs (or sim.) and I like seeing you all together and hearing about the things you are doing with your significant others and it doesn't make me feel lonely and unwanted at all.
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Date: 2011-02-14 09:05 pm (UTC)Stupid PMS . . .
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Date: 2011-02-15 09:32 pm (UTC)(Two people I know who had awful PMS have had good luck with birth control pills really helping with the worst of it. However, as always, YMMV, and I'm one of those Luddites who hates taking pills so I would understand if that's not an acceptable solution.)
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Date: 2011-02-16 04:24 am (UTC)I'm sorry you're feeling so anxious and sad. And PMS is awful and I hate it and I think it should go away and leave us all (but especially you, because you are awesome and I love you) alone. Forever.
I wish you were nearby, because I would make you tea and my kitties would give you snuggles.